Is fat like alcohol? A social lubricant?
30 Jan
I was outside today with my dogs and thinking about how I’ve changed in the last year. When I think of myself, I remember feeling very uptight, pretty antisocial and moody… for probably, at least the first 22 years of my existence.
I hated school because of the 15 minute recess and lunch hour, where I’d have to actually talk to other classmates. I loved sitting in my chair, all alone in my bubble just listening to the teacher explain things. When I was younger and attended religious meetings I had the same problem. I’d get nervous about the last amen pronounced because that was like the signal that I’d have to get up from my chair and talk to the brothers and sisters.
Basically, I lacked alot of confidence in myself and I thought people were constantly judging me. I believed I had nothing interesting to say to others, that they wouldn’t care about whatever I’d say.
So what’s the point of this whole post? What does low carb/high fat have to do with my mental disposition?
Have my thoughts and mood improved on this diet? The answer is YES! Tremendously!
I don’t go to bed and stay awake for hours remembering every single thing I said and wonder if it offended someone or if it will come back and haunt me.
I feel very positive about the future and I no longer contemplate suicide.
I like being around my friends and feel like meeting new people.
I don’t stress over details as much. I don’t feel as obssessive anymore. I realise I can’t always be in control of situations.
I’m not as rigid and dogmatic as before. I let people have their say, express their opinions but I don’t try to convert anyone. If someone challenges me I don’t take it personal and I focus on learning more instead of trying to justify everything. I’m not into mental gymnastics anymore. You know where you have this theory of how the world works and if something contradicts that you either ignore it, downplay it or lie about it. I’m sure I still do that once in a while, but I try to be more conscious about it and open minded.
My theory is that my brain was malnourished, it wasn’t getting nearly enough of those essential fatty acids. Well what do you expect? How can a diet that’s low in fat be adequate in efa’s? I was consumming low fat milk or even worse soy beverage (don’t let anyone call this abomination milk, as far as I know beans don’t have breasts), low fat cheese, little to no meat, very rarely had fish or eggs. Didn’t have any of those important animal foods in my late teens and early twenties. I lived on sugar and more sugar. I was always complaining that I was too tired and depressed. That’s another thing, when you’re utilizing glucose for energy, you constantly have these dips in energy. When you use fat for energy you don’t run into that wall you do when eating lots of carbs. So, when you’re not scared of fat, you’re getting all these nutrients and a better, more stable energy source.
Oh and guess what? My sex drive is up, way up!
So what’s up with my title? Well, even though I do occasionaly indulge in a bit of alcohol, I don’t need a bunch of spirits and pills to get me through the day or make me feel at ease with people. Instead of taking drugs, I eat the proper foods that are the building blocks or precursors to neurotransmitters. I let my brain make up the right drugs for me. Because, let’s face it, all of us are on drugs all the time.
You know what use to be my drug of choice? Pillsburry chocolate chip cookies with a tall glass of cold milk. You’ve got a mix of some of the most potent drugs in there: grains and milk, which contain opioid substances called exorphins, cacao, contains a caffeine like substance called theobromine and then the sugar… Just think of the nice blend of tastes and textures, warm and cold, soft, crumbly and liquid….The first couple of cookies you have you feel so good, it almost feels like love or heaven. But it doesn’t last. Just like I’m looking for a more reliable/constant energy source, I also want a more stable mood and feeling of happiness?! I stay away from the cheap pleasures of carb binging and instead rely on the quality fats and animal proteins to keep my brain running smoothly. I’ll snack on some jerky, tinned fish, some cheese, a cup of coffee with some heavy cream, cooked veggies smothered in butter, nuts and so on.
When you think about it, it kinda makes sense that dietary fat does your brain good. Your brain is mostly fat. Just like you would apply fat to lubricate your body, you should eat fat to keep your brain well lubed. Don’t forget fat is part of every cell membrane. It’s ubiquitous!
